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04 November 2012 @ 01:52 am
I am experiencing trouble in the chubble (I'm not sure what that is but I don't like it.) and interweb paranoia in equal parts.  Until one of these conditions abate, I am flocking everything, er, most everything except fic.  Cause there are state secrets in here;)  If you want rants and random scribbles, let me know.


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p.s.  if you are reading this and you're American, please remember to rock the vote.  No matter who it's for.  Vote Elephant, Donkey, or Emu--just vote!
 
 
mrsfjl66
I don't have nearly enough Idol people on my f-list to warrant a whole post about this, but I have virtually no Beatle people on said list and I chatter on about them all the time so:

I have just listened to Kris and Adam's albums back to back and I gotta say, I'm thoroughly confused. For a happily married dude, Kris sounds miserable and on the verge of a major break up. Except for "Alright with me" which is bouncy and fabulous and about someone he doesn't have but can't keep his eyes off of. *insert Kradam heart eyes picture here* (The whole album confirms what I have believed for quite some time--Kris Allen needs to co-write with Jay Clifford NOW NOW NOW)

And Adam. Well, it's supposed to be dancified and sexy. And it totally is. A little bit Queen. A little bit Prince. A little bit Bowie. And a whole lot of something that's just Adam. But it is not just glam!pop. There's plenty of heartsickness over someone he wants to open up, be himself, no matter the consequences.

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And now, for the first time ever from me, 4 RPS recs, all 4 by [info]holycitygirl. I'd love them even if three of them weren't written specifically for me:

Don't Leave Me Here (to Let You Down)
Rating: R for language
Pairings: Kris/Adam; hints at Mark/Derek; cameos by Katy Allen, Izzie Stevens, Derek Shepherd and Mark Sloan
A Grey's Anatomy/AI8 crossover. Kris is unconscious and Adam is left to deal with grief and Seattle Grace. What's not to like? ;) (You don't have to watch Grey's Anatomy to read this, btw)

Virtue and Vice
Rating: R for Language
Pairing: Kris/Adam
A post tour fic, in which Adam misses the boyfriend he never always had. Also, Adam tastes like chocolate;)

Loud (you were always good at putting words together
Rating: R for language
Pairings: Kris Allen/Milo Ventimiglia (you read that right), Kris/Adam
In which Kris dates the guy on that show about saving the cheerleader. Adam is not pleased. Jealous!Adam is also further harassed by kickass!Katy Allen and I just really friggin loved that. The sequel, from Kris's POV, is also amazing!

And last but definitely not least, a High School!Kradam AU that I always want more of.

"Just wondering. How many people, so far, have told you I'm the token queer at Cowell Heights? Is it more or less than the amount of people who have told you that the head cheerleader wants you to take her to the Tasty Freeze after the game on Friday?"

One of these days, I'm gonna compile a whole list of Kradam recs so I have them in one place, but it would be a mile long, and that's more than I have time for tonight.
 
 
mrsfjl66
10 November 2009 @ 06:32 pm
1) My friend Matthew (not to be confused with my friend Matthew) just met Julian Lennon on the street in Manhattan. It makes me think maybe it's better that he's a guy and can be cool and shake his hand and not go GUHHHHH I LOVE UR DAAAAAAAAD like I may have been tempted to do.

2) I made turkey soup yesterday as a stress coping mechanism. Made my own stock and everything. I like to think that somehow Ina Garten/Alton Brown/Paula Deen know this and are proud of me ;)

3) I have finally gone there. I've had a Kris/Adam playlist on my iTunes for months now but am finally sharing it because they belong together because they both have albums coming out very very soon and I love them! If rps squicks you out then it's just music. That's all.
Good Old-Fashioned Lover Boy )
 
 
mrsfjl66
21 September 2009 @ 06:20 pm
This is a not one-shot, not drabble, not ficlet that will not do what I want it to do. Balls.

No, Delta Burke. Keep up, Grey. )
 
 
mrsfjl66
14 September 2009 @ 10:44 pm
Tonight, I was getting take-out from a barbeque place on King Street (yeah, I'm cheating on my one true love the cheeseburger).  I passed two guys and one of them said, "Crippled bitch!" as I passed.  It took me a second to realize he was talking to me.  I whirled around and said, "Excuse me?" but he and his unfortunate friend were already gone.

I should have been laughing hysterically and praying for his enlightenment, but instead, my silly little brain thought, "But you don't even know me!  I could be an exceedingly nice cripple!"  And then my traitorous tear ducts couldn't help themselves, and I was crying in the middle of the street.

What I cannot believe, beyond the fact that I successfully fought the urge to beat this boy to death with his own shoes, is that i heard what he said, processed it, and then only objected to the last of that phrase.  Sure, the word cripple is so ugly and bent that I can barely stand to type it.  But it's not untrue.

I am "disabled."  A "cripple."  A "handicap." I am "special," "spastic," and "not right."  I actually rode the "short bus" to school for six months of my life.  I put all this in quotes because not one of these expressions apply to me or the life I actually live.  But neither do the socially and medically accepted phrases "cerebral palsy," "quadriplegia" or "brain injured." 

I was born three and a half months early and could not breathe on my own for many months.  The resulting neurological damage left me without the ability to walk unassisted, and pesky muscle spasticity in my arms and legs.  What this means:  I do not walk.  But I am not paralyzed.  I can swim, drive a car, open doors, and have lots of dirty sex if I so desire--these may not seem like revelatory acts but most people doubt my ability to do any one of them.

Why am I talking about this now?  Because online I don't have to be anything other than Taylor, the Beatle-obsessed southern girl who's always looking for a snack and a man in skinny jeans.  I don't have to talk about anything other than my perpetually un-updated fic, and my obsession with Gale Harold's soccer boy build.

And usually, that is a-ok by me.  Because ironically, advocacy is not my bag.  I prefer to be a moderately selfish being who interacts with disability on a minimal basis.  Because isn't the point of equality that I should get to *live* life rather than yakking about just how I do it?

Nope.  That's not the point at all.  Just because I treat my disability as incidentally as I do my eye color, doesn't mean that's what it is.  Unfortunately, as I get older, it gets more difficult to figure out just how I should handle it.  I don't want to harp on it.  I don't want to be bitter.  And I don't wanna cry in the street every time a silly man-child in a pink t-shirt says a bigoted thing.

I should be proud that he called me a crippled bitch.  Cause for my whole life I've been fighting preconceived notions that all disabled people are exactly the same: blind, deaf, dumb and in need of pity and prayer.  Along with those knee jerk prejudices, there is the notion that we are all good.  Saintly.  God's own "special folk" who do not curse, drink, or skip classes. 

I will admit those misconceptions have helped me out once or twice, but they are designed to limit us, me, in the same way the word cripple (insert other perjorative racial/ethnic/sexual slurs here) does.  I want to be more than that.  I want to be a wife.  A mother.  A writer.  A lawyer. A woman.  A poet. A cook.  A sister.  A friend.  A Beatle wife (wait...).  I can't be all that if I'm only seen as cripple, a tiny twisted sliver of self.  So I should be proud that he saw something in my face, my eyes, my hairdo (piled on top of my head and secured with a red pencil at the moment) that warranted more than one adjective. 

I want disabled people, actually all people, to get to be whatever in the world they aspire to be, and that includes the bad stuff.  A small example:  When I'm watching TV, I want the disabled murder suspect to have to have an alibi beyond "being in a wheelchair" (Bones, I'm looking at you.  Y'all can do better than that.)  Does that make any sense?  If it doesn't, let me rephrase.

I want to live in a world of three dimensional people, all of them in brilliant technicolor, equal parts fucked up and spectacular.  Anybody with me?

*term inspired by this exchange from Once Upon a Time in Mexico:
Sands: Are you a MexiCan or a MexiCan't?
EL: I'm a MexiCan.



 
 
mrsfjl66
17 August 2009 @ 10:35 pm
Title: Moods that Take Me
Author: [info]mrsfjl66
Recipient: [info]citron_presse
Pairing(s)/Character(s): Mark/Addison; cameos by Cristina, Izzie, Callie and Lexie
Rating: R for language
Warnings:Character death that would be reasonably expected from Grey’s Season Finale
Disclaimer: The characters and plotlines referenced herein are the property of ABC, and Shonda Rhimes. No profit is derived from their use.
Author's Notes: For [info]greys_exchange and [info]citron_presse .  Eep! I had a vision of Mark in a John Deere hat and then this happened. This was supposed to be a Mark story and ended up all about Addison. Oh, the irony! It’s a post-finale “Addison in Seattle” tale—can you say one trick pony? Thanks to [info]lone_lilly , [info]citron_presse , [info]boofadil , and [info]anna_in_the_sky for being my GA peeps;)
Summary: Addison’s been having nightmares.


Guys, is Dr. Montgomery in the hallway or am I having a really random hallucination? )
 
 
mrsfjl66
But it's the first Grey's related material I've managed in weeks so I'm gonna post it anyway.
Hush )

 
 
mrsfjl66
21 January 2009 @ 05:08 am
I've been watching way too much Food Network. It leaves me with a kind of "ZOMG CAKE!!!" feeling. Which led to an after dark trip to Saffron's. Combine bites of white chocolate mousse cake with the apple martinis that Goober and I had at our "laywers without paychecks" luncheon, and I'm more than a little sugar drunk.

I've wanted to do a massive fic rec post for a long time.  Actually, I just want all my favorite Grey's fics in one place.  The list is riddled with favoritism, is by no means complete and is ridiculously laden with Meredith/Derek, and to a lesser extent, Mark/Addison fic.  If I recc'd an author once, there's a good chance there's more yum to be found there.  Check out [info]elevatorjunkies and [info]ga_ficrecs cause that's where I found many of these.

 
 
mrsfjl66
07 January 2009 @ 08:03 pm
Title:  Dear Friend, what's the time?
Author:  mrsfjl66
Rating:  PG-13
Characters/Pairings:  Cristina, Lexie, Meredith; hints of canon couples past and present
Disclaimer is here.

A/N:  I've owed [info]anna_in_the_sky fic (and some Skype time) since her birthday in August.  I may be late, but I bear fic and a new journal layout (I have a huge crush on the header;)) A Meredith & Cristina conversation with a side of Lexipedia.  I'm a Cristina person, but apparently I had some issues.  I haven't seen any of the previews for the new ep, so any spoiling, etc, herein, is unintentional.  Second post of NU'NF' Fic Fest;)  Thanks [info]citron_presse for the super speedy help!.


You don't have to understand. )
 
 
mrsfjl66
27 December 2008 @ 05:59 pm
Title: You’re What I Want for Christmas
Author: mrsfjl66
Rating: PG Thirteenish
Pairings: Meredith and Derek, with mentions of Alex and Izzie and Mark and Lexie.
Disclaimer: The characters, settings and initial plotlines represented herein are the property of ABC, Shonda Rhimes, and any other entities having an ownership interest in Grey's Anatomy. No copyright infringement is intended, and no personal gain is being derived from the fair use of their intellectual property.

A/N: This has been written for weeks. No posting access means Christmas isn’t over for me apparently. For [info]dmdell119, who wanted giggly!Meredith and jealous!Derek in their Shonda invented “happy couple” bubble. Not exactly that but as close as I could do. First post of the Tay’s Not Updating!ficfest. Yay!

Inspired by these. )

There aren't any reindeer. )
 
 
mrsfjl66
This is five times too long to be a drabble and a little too skinny to be a one shot. It's a silly thought that got stuck in my head before Denny was undead and Sadie existed. Been tweaked a bit since then.

Title: First Down
Author: mrsfjl66
Rating: R for language I guess
Disclaimer:The characters, settings and initial plotlines represented herein are the property of ABC, Shonda Rhimes, and any other entities having an ownership interest in Grey's Anatomy. No personal gain is being derived from the fair use of their intellectual property. This is almost longer than the ficlet.
Not what the pilgrims had in mind )
 
 
mrsfjl66
The slap of your insanity shook me out of my self indulgent Dad rant and right back into "Are you fucking serious?" which is right where I need to be the night before election day.  

ABC has fired Brooke Smith from Grey's Anatomy and her exit episode (what exit?) will air one week, one week, following her character Erica Hahn's incredible, riveting discovery that she is gay.  Not a little bit gay.  But like all the way, out of the closet, "She's finally seeing the world the way she--as in not everyone, but the way she on her own journey--was intended to see it" gay.  And just like that-->Gone. 

So what do I do?  I'm a white, Southern, heterosexual female who happens to believe in loving who you love, regardless of race, gender, sexual orientation or hair color (though I really like the dark headed ones my self)  And I know it's just TV.  It's just TV but I consume a lot of it.  And I consume a lot of ABC's product, this one in particular.  So do I keep watching even though I think this move was more batshit than Sarah Palin thinking the Vice-President is "in charge" of the Senate?  Or do I switch off with the knowledge that it doesn't really matter at all and that most people are probably pleased as punch to get that silly gay story out of their tube?

I'm actually disgusted.  Which is hilarious given the day I've had.  My priorities are so fucked up, but what isn't?
 
 
mrsfjl66
19 May 2008 @ 11:07 am
Title: Not Fine: Waking up
Author: mrsfjl66
Pairings: maddison, mer/der, but as always, Madtina friendship is the thing.
Rating: R for language
Disclaimer:  The characters, settings and initial plotlines represented herein are the property of ABC, Shonda Rhimes, and any other entities having an ownership interest in Grey's Anatomy.  No personal gain is being derived from the fair use of their intellectual property.
A/N:  I borrowed the sparkle pager (because I heart it), and Callie and Hahn's moment in Cristina's apartment from 4.12. That's all.  Not the timing, or the trials. This part begins a day or three after the previous part. Thanks to [info]calliope_mc   for the edits and insight.

Previous Parts:Not Running, Throw One Off A Cliff, Mommytracking, Moving on, Fussing and Fighting


Meredith, this is your house, not Baskin Robbins. )
 
 
mrsfjl66
19 April 2008 @ 10:56 am
Title: Not Fine: Fussing and Fighting
Author: mrsfjl66
Rating: R for Mark's foul mouth
Disclaimer:  The characters, settings and initial plotlines represented herein are the property of ABC, Shonda Rhimes, and any other entities having an ownership interest in Grey's Anatomy.  No personal gain is being derived from the fair use of their intellectual property.
A/N: Nobody is very happy with anybody else in this part. [info]calliope_mc, it's nothing like the update I promised. Thanks for your help, and [info]anna_in_the_sky, thanks for the encouragement!

Previous Parts: Not Running, Throw One Off A Cliff, Mommytracking, Moving on

Mandy cane? )

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mrsfjl66
12 March 2008 @ 10:49 am
Title: Not Fine:  Moving on
Author:  mrsfjl66
Rating: PG-13 for language
Disclaimer:  The characters, settings and initial plotlines represented herein are the property of ABC, Shonda Rhimes, and any other entities having an ownership interest in Grey's Anatomy.  No personal gain is being derived from the fair use of their intellectual property.
A/N:   Addison is sick of room service.  Meredith is sick of gossip.  And as always, Cristina is sick of everyone.
Previous Parts: Not Running, Throw One Off A Cliff, Mommytracking


This is why people buy guns )
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mrsfjl66
22 February 2008 @ 10:35 am
Title: Not Fine: Mommytracking
Author: mrsfjl66
Rating: R
Disclaimer:  The characters, settings and initial plotlines represented herein are the property of ABC, Shonda Rhimes, and any other entities having an ownership interest in Grey's Anatomy.  No personal gain is being derived from the fair use of their intellectual property.
A/N:  Madtina, Derek, and Lexie unwittingly have lunch together. Things are said. 

Previous Parts: Not Running, Throw One Off A Cliff

You do eat, right Cruella? )

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mrsfjl66
20 February 2008 @ 10:33 am
Title: Not Fine: Throw one off a cliff
Author: mrsfjl66
Rating: R for language
Disclaimer:  The characters, settings and initial plotlines represented herein are the property of ABC, Shonda Rhimes, and any other entities having an ownership interest in Grey's Anatomy.  No personal gain is being derived from the fair use of their intellectual property.


Previous Part: Not Running

Three Surgeons walk into a bar )

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mrsfjl66
19 February 2008 @ 10:25 am
Title: Not Fine: Not Running
Author: mrsfjl66
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer:  The characters, settings and initial plotlines represented herein are the property of ABC, Shonda Rhimes, and any other entities having an ownership interest in Grey's Anatomy.  No personal gain is being derived from the fair use of their intellectual property.
A/N: Post 4.11, Addison (who's still in Seattle), Meredith and Cristina are "not talking". Thanks [info]calliope_mc for the read!

Addison's not buying the fine )

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